Yesterday, a friend and person of my past contacted me. Sure it's nice to hear from someone special again. It was just simple hi and hello's, wondring how each of us are doing. He has been to 7 countries already and now he's still sailing towards China. But something bothered me yesterday because of what his friend/co-worker told me.

How could my memories possibly haunt him? We were kids in high school and it didn't last good enough. We barely even talk and spend time together when he was here. I really didn't get the chance to know him deeper. The connection between us was ages ago. His friend told me that he wants to win me back. What's the worth of winning? When ages have passed and I've met someone who'd be here with me and make me happy...

It's been 9 months when I chose to be with someone. I've been contented with him after the ups and downs. When I came home last night, thoughts pop and maybe I'm just guilty that I think about what my friend's friend told me. I started to question myself again with what if's.
I fell asleep and woke up with new thoughts. I reminisce how I met my guy, how it felt, the things we've been through and how he loves me. Though I admit that sometimes some things are bothering me, I kept saying that this is my choice. I've never felt so complete before in my life but then things change for some time.

Thanks to Lex Luthor with the thought that, a person is not known by the last things he said, but who he has been through out the relationship. Sort of like that. Well I guess, looking back with how we've been through would answer the questions I hide inside.

posted by myrottendoll @ 11:19 PM

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