Not that I wanted to broadcast everything out of me. But, only few would bother to snoop my blog. :) Afterall, I don't really expose too much of me. I just want to have something to read and that would still exist... I'll keep this updated whenever I have the time.
Oh yeah, about me... I spend my rest days just watching Smallville series dvd that I borrowed from my bf. I was never really a fan of it and never had the time to watch on tv but now, ain't it cool to watch something good without advertisements ruining the story? LOLOLZ Atleast I had something to turn my attention to and spend my time to forget my frustrations and paranoias.
My work is ok as in just fine but I don't have anything great happening as of now. I love the job but the work isn't really that enjoying sometime. Not that I hate working but yeah, I know what "work" stands for. This job is something special that I don't want to quit or even ruin. But there's this issue in our forums that just ruins my day whenever I see it. Err, not really the issue becuase I know the fact that it isn't true but those players that think that the GMs are doing some magic to regular characters. Some sort of losers to rant all they want just because someone did better than them. Not that I'm being rude but it's really obvious that they think as just plain players and not as real gamers. In a gaming world, everything is possible without a glitch of a GMs favoritism or unfair play. We didn't even know the player. LOL For the last time, I replied and locked his threads about the issue. I think his brain just can't process it. LOL He can't accept what's real so he keeps on insisting that the GMs are doing something behind the game. He can't accept it so he puts the blame to someone else. Sore loser. Sorry. XD
It's halloween and I'm going to work tomorrow. I like working on weekends and holidays. It's kinda peaceful and pressure-free that bosses are not around.
I'm learning to adjust once more now that I gave up on something again. I'm a quitter and I'm weak. I'm also a loser in my own ways but hey that's when I found that the Man up there is watching me. I failed so many times and strayed so many times yet the loser in me eats all the braveness that I wish to show. I failed that Man, my friends, family and myself again. I haven't found the guts yet to tell them especially my bf. :(
After all that I've been through, after finding this special person in my life and accepting this job I wanted, the loser in me whipers in my ears. I don't want to look dumb but it seems that it's really what I am. I'll go and stray away again. I just hope that the good things I have right now would hold on to me even if this is what I really am.
posted by myrottendoll @ 10:22 PM
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